5777 was a hard year to cope with. In fact, every year is hard to cope with in its own way, but I think it brings you what you are ready to take. Or, at least, I encourage myself to think after realizing at the end of a very everntful year that, in fact the best lesson is to be able to wake up every single morning grateful for the gift of life, trying to live every moment as the best of my life.
It seems that I finally made it to the point where I can look at life with a deep smile onto my face, regardless the outcome.
I went through difficult times in the last year, which involves many ups and downs of any kinds, but being healthy and strong for my son, being surrounded by friends - even people that I never counted as friends - are my most precious diamonds. My emuna wasn't strong enough, my learning went very bad, my observance was wavering, I listened too much to lashon hara and sometimes was even part of it myself. I was too judgemental and too angry to think properly that breathing deep and counting to three is actually better than the outbursts of unhappiness.
And here goes my 5778 Resolutions:
- I want to wake up every single early morning with a grateful smile on my face;
- I need more consistency to keep up with who I am, not giving up what I am. I want to resume regular tefillah, and Tehillim reading and my weekly challah baking and the peaceful observance of the holidays.
- Altough the previous 3-hour learning schedule is almost impossible under the current situation, at least one hour the day can be done.
- I am surrounded by wonderful people, and I want to show more my appreciation for their presence into my life.
- Lashon hara was my biggest enemy the last year and my decision is to stop either hearing or being part of it. I am doing my best to stay away of people spreading and practising it, but also from thinking about people in a way that might lead to it.
- More reading in Hebrew and Yiddish, not only because I need to use more those languages, but because my son will need it too.
- Living a healthier life and considering more healthy options, like yoga, running or more hiking in the middle of the nature.
- Being happy with my lot and being thankful for everything the day brings on.
- Last but not least, more interesting posts about Jewish history, books and everyday stories.
Shana Tova u' Metuka
